Homesick

Its been awhile sense ive been on here but a lot has happened sense. Ive lost friends been lied to and much more. Life isent all bad. Im working a lot, I still have a lot of good friends, and the band couldnt be better as of right now. But there is so much other stuff going on i dont even know where to start. People i have been there for sense day one of meeting them have left my side over reason that are bull shit and they can come to me and talk about things with out making it clear they dont like me , or the things “ive done”. All i hear now is that people talk shit about me behind my back. People i consider my friends. Ive been told i distanced myself from people when its not true. The phone works both ways and im sick of being made out to be the bad guy. I try and be the perfect friend and it doesnt work out. Ive lost friends who i would have given my life for. It sucks. People dont know my life like they use to. There are some people im so glad ive gotten away from because honestly there not going anywhere and it kills me to say that. Some times i feel hated by the people that mean the most o me. I dont talk to many people anymore and i try not to be on my phone like i use to. Honestly the thing pisses me off. I’ve been made out to be an asshole when its not true. Im going to make an effort to bring old friend ships back together. And if they dont want to then i guess so be it. Idk why im ranting but it seemed right. Okay well.. bye